Mad as a Hatter

Rant time.

I’m going to sound like an angsty teen but fuck it. I’ve been trying to get a job and be independent since 9th grade, but my parents logic was “no, focus on school and depend on us so we can control you”. Now that I’m 18 they’re forcing me to get a job and constantly talk about how “spoiled” and “ungrateful” I am. I get a check in the mail once a month from dad(long story), and it’s legally MY money, I didn’t know this until I turned 18 and had to open an account for it to be put in a separate account for me.This moneys put on a card that’s supposed to be MINE, but my mom uses it on bills which I can’t complain about. but when i need shoes or pants or something it’s “you’re wasting my money use your card”, but she’s used all my money…I’m going to college in 3 months and NOW my parents are making me look fr a job. no one is going to hire me knowing I’ll only be here for 3 months. I just got done with a play for school that had me busy until 7pm every day for the last 2 months, and for the past 5 days I’ve been out until like 12am for the actual show. Then Sunday I was at church at 8am to teach Sunday school that I didn’t even sign up to do, then I was allowed to go out so I chilled with friends until 6 when I had to go back to church to help with youth group and sisn’t get home until 9pm. Today was my first day off, well after school, and I just want to lay down but mom comes in arguing that it seems like I don’t live at the house yet I want them to do everything for me. I don’t want them to do everything for me, I need it. I don’t have my license because my parents didn’t let me, I don’t have a car because we can’t afford it(not complaining), I don’t have a job because they didn’t let me. It’s not my fault I can’t do things on my own..